[he gives her hand a squeeze when she starts getting frantic, and reaches his free hand out to slide down her hair.]
It's okay. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to upset you.
[wei wuxian can see how she struggles, and a lifetime of believing a certain way simply can't be changed in a matter of days or weeks. and honestly, even he doesn't have a clear answer for her question, because they should never have been faced with such cruel choices in the first place.]
I think your sister followed what her heart told her to do. And so did you, because you loved her so much. Sometimes the result of that is painful. But you did the best you could, with almost no one to help you, and neither of you are to blame. Even if you don't believe that now, I hope you'll still remember it. I hope you can live on with no regrets.
[She swallows hard before she gets up to move around the table, throwing her arms around him tightly. Her heart pounded in her chest, her head ached, the wound on her throat throbbed. She didn’t know if it was better or worse to not have an answer and to not have a direction to be pointed in.
Now, suddenly, she had all sorts of doors open to her and still her feet felt paralyzed to the spot with indecision.] I’m sorry... [Sae didn’t know what else to do but apologize. She’d started this conversation wanting to commiserate, and instead she feels like, somehow, she’s failed him.]
[wei wuxian's breath catches in a soft gasp when she hugs him. his eyes start to water immediately, because he can feel how tight it is. her sincerity, her own strength. very few have ever apologized for what happened to him. he never expected it. but it feels good to hear anyway, and he has to remind himself to be a little careful when he hugs her in return.]
I'm sorry this happened to us too. [a whispered voice. in the end, the perfect thing to say comes from her lips, and she's so far from having failed him. he smiles, even though his eyes are still damp.] But I promise to watch out for you from now on. Because I want you here, and I also don't want Yae mad at me.
It’s not right. [She murmurs. It’s not right that he died, and its’ not right that she wasn’t killed in the ‘proper’ way.] And it’s not fair.
[But she laughs a little at the mention of Yae getting mad at him and lifts her face to press a shy kiss to his cheek.] You could never disappoint me. I’ll watch out for you too. I don’t...I don’t have any of my abilities anymore form home, but I... I’ll do my best too.
After all, I’m sure Wangji-nii is even scarier than Yae if he gets mad.
[lan wangji would take a limb off of anyone who tried it. but not wanting to upset her is an incentive all its own. wei wuxian keeps his arms around her, keeps her on his side of the table.]
Lan Zhan is really something when he's angry. [that impish smile crosses his lips. he doesn't think that she ever has anything to fear from his husband-to-be.] He really must look scary, but all I can think is how proud I am. Lan Zhan only gets angry for good reasons. He's not petty.
[The entire second episode where he get real petty pass-agg at Jiang Cheng has something to say about that, Wei Wuxian. Alas, love truly is blind...
Se leans against him, using him like a prop to keep her up] He seems really strong. He played his instrument for me once. It’s sort of like the koto— I should play for you sometime. I learned how to play that. [one of the more acceptable feminine pursuits she was allowed to learn alongside Yae.]
Mm, though, I guess we’d have to find a koto first...
I really want to hear you play. We'll look for one tomorrow, or find someone to make one.
[it might be a little harder than poking a few holes in a piece of bamboo, but still. it they can manage it, and she's comfortable enough, maybe she can play at the wedding.]
I'm lucky to have two people who can play me a lullaby when I can't sleep.
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[he gives her hand a squeeze when she starts getting frantic, and reaches his free hand out to slide down her hair.]
It's okay. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to upset you.
[wei wuxian can see how she struggles, and a lifetime of believing a certain way simply can't be changed in a matter of days or weeks. and honestly, even he doesn't have a clear answer for her question, because they should never have been faced with such cruel choices in the first place.]
I think your sister followed what her heart told her to do. And so did you, because you loved her so much. Sometimes the result of that is painful. But you did the best you could, with almost no one to help you, and neither of you are to blame. Even if you don't believe that now, I hope you'll still remember it. I hope you can live on with no regrets.
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Now, suddenly, she had all sorts of doors open to her and still her feet felt paralyzed to the spot with indecision.] I’m sorry... [Sae didn’t know what else to do but apologize. She’d started this conversation wanting to commiserate, and instead she feels like, somehow, she’s failed him.]
I’m sorry all of this happened. To both of us.
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I'm sorry this happened to us too. [a whispered voice. in the end, the perfect thing to say comes from her lips, and she's so far from having failed him. he smiles, even though his eyes are still damp.] But I promise to watch out for you from now on. Because I want you here, and I also don't want Yae mad at me.
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[But she laughs a little at the mention of Yae getting mad at him and lifts her face to press a shy kiss to his cheek.] You could never disappoint me. I’ll watch out for you too. I don’t...I don’t have any of my abilities anymore form home, but I... I’ll do my best too.
After all, I’m sure Wangji-nii is even scarier than Yae if he gets mad.
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[lan wangji would take a limb off of anyone who tried it. but not wanting to upset her is an incentive all its own. wei wuxian keeps his arms around her, keeps her on his side of the table.]
Lan Zhan is really something when he's angry. [that impish smile crosses his lips. he doesn't think that she ever has anything to fear from his husband-to-be.] He really must look scary, but all I can think is how proud I am. Lan Zhan only gets angry for good reasons. He's not petty.
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Se leans against him, using him like a prop to keep her up] He seems really strong. He played his instrument for me once. It’s sort of like the koto— I should play for you sometime. I learned how to play that. [one of the more acceptable feminine pursuits she was allowed to learn alongside Yae.]
Mm, though, I guess we’d have to find a koto first...
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[it might be a little harder than poking a few holes in a piece of bamboo, but still. it they can manage it, and she's comfortable enough, maybe she can play at the wedding.]
I'm lucky to have two people who can play me a lullaby when I can't sleep.